a place for me to b*tch

10:23PM - still alive

Yup, I'm still alive! I haven't been on here in a long time...and I lost the net at work, so I can't update there...
It's funny how in life, things happen for a reason. Right now, I have no idea where my life will take me, and honest, who cares. It's about the ride...and it's a ride of a life time, no pun intended. The hardest choice I have right now, where to go on holidays...I want to go back out west this year...look around more...but we'll see what happens....there's still a lot in life I want to do...and I'm only 28...true, I'm not getting any younger, but time is still going at it's same speed....I still talk to Dean...even though some friends don't know, or understand why. But it's not what they think that counts, it's what I think that counts....I WANT to talk to him...i WANT to see him again....he IS special to me. I AM a little messed up from class tonight...

so to all people out there...don't do something in life cuz others think it's right...do what you want (as long as the law abides to it)...enjoy life, for all you know, it's the only one you'll get...you wanna go white water rafting? (which i am) then go, you wanna jump from a plane? (maybe, yet, still scared) then do it...you wanna move to a different province, alone? Then do it. Worst thing that could happen, you won't like it. And the great thing about not liking something, you can CAN always change it. If there's something in your life now you don't like....change it....why live with something that doesn't make you happy...that's a waste...and people already waste too much as it is...enjoy life...love it, embrass it, live it...
those are my final words here...night

Current mood: contemplative

12:28PM - survey

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Julie-Anna
Birthday:	December 6, 1978
Birthplace:	Oakville
Current Location:	Oakville
Eye Color:	Brown and or green (depends mood)
Hair Color:	Brown with Red, natural, highlights
Height:	5'10"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Left handed (I'm in my right mind!)
Your Heritage:	Canadian, Acadian, French, Ukki, Native (Henz 57)
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Black, open toed, dress shoes
Your Weakness:	if I told ya, I'd have to kill ya
Your Fears:	losing the ones I love
Your Perfect Pizza:	loving that BBQ chicken thing
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Not sure, life's chanced now.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol...like really, are your really laughing out loud?
Thoughts First Waking Up:	NNNNOOOOO! I don't wanna work...
Your Best Physical Feature:	my smile (genuine)
Your Bedtime:	when I get off the phone
Your Most Missed Memory:	now? Edmonton...bitter sweet
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	neither!
Single or Group Dates:	both can be good
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	neither
Do you Smoke:	ewww...no
Do you Swear:	no f*cking* wayl!
Do you Sing:	all the time
Have you Been in Love:	yup
Do you want to go to College:	not anymore, I've been there, done that! (got the diploma!)
Do you want to get Married:	not really sure I care to.
Do you belive in yourself:	I believe I can do whatever I set my mind to
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	can be
Are you a Health Freak:	not really, I work out, attempt to eat "healthy"...that's about it
Do you get along with your Parents:	at my age, I'd hope so
Do you like Thunderstorms:	as long as I'm inside...yes
Do you play an Instrument:	Lots of em..piano, clarinet, flute, sax, and others...
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	hooch...interesting stuff....(moon shine)
In the past month have you Smoked:	nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope (well, caffinee's a drug, so yes...)
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	not sure if it was a date...I went out with Dean...
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	only the biggest in Canada, the WEST EDMONTON MALL!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	actually, haven't eaten any oreo's
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	I got a 12 pack in Calgary (made in Edmonton)
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Life is a stage...so yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	weird, but not sure....
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	sadly, no....
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	not without saying "I'm stealing...."
Ever been Drunk:	come on, open bar for my Christmas party!I need a date for that, any offers?
Ever been called a Tease:	lol..I'm a tease with intent to please...:D
Ever been Beaten up:	Every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, but I get in some nice shots too!
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes, I got caught...trust me, not worth it...
How do you want to Die:	as the saying goes "when I die, I want to go peacefully in my sleep like my grandpa, not screaming like the person beside him in the car"
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I think I'm called a "grown up" now...but I wanna win the Loto, so I can travel the world
What country would you most like to Visit:	Finish Canada...then....Europe I guess
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	colour doesn't matter, but lively, playful eyes...
Favourite Hair Color:	again, doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair:	medium...I like to run my hands through hair, but not longer then mine
Height:	5'something
Weight:	a health weight
Best Clothing Style:	naked...:)
Number of Drugs I have taken:	doesn't matter to me as long as it doesn't run your life
Number of CDs I own:	who cares...most of mine are burned
Number of Piercings:	as long as they are tasteful, who cares
Number of Tattoos:	again, tasteful, who cares
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	I don't live with regret cuz that means I did something wrong, and I have learning experiences, not mistakes
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Current mood: sore

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12:51AM - been a bit

So, it's been a bit since I last updated anything. Thing's have changed for a bit. I'm not moving to Edmonton, not yet at least...we'll see where life brings me in the mean time. At the moment, I've gotten a promotion at work. Christina's leaving, I'll miss her, but it's all good, we'll still talk! Tomorrow night's my just cuz dinner, was going to announce my leaving if I was leaving but since I'm not, it's just for Michelle's b-day. Funny, I loved Edmonton....but I can't do it alone...anyone wanna come with me? Well, I have Lance out there too, but really, I don't know him THAT well....it was a good week....short, at times lonely...very interesting....nice call by the way googler, I heard the message..."that girl" has a name thank you very much, and second, who stays there, none of your business...but anyways.
It was a good week....ate good food, went to a cool after hours club, made it til 6am! (Not bad!) I laughed, I cried...but generally, a good trip.
Anyways, I wanna go to bed...I have my juijitsu tomorrow at 12!
Hope all is well in Live journal land and ttyal!

Current mood: thoughtful

10:52PM - voices in my head...telling me things to do....

So, I've been thinking a lot lately, which is why I'm also going to the gym more often this week too. Helps me think, and not of the bad things. Or maybe, it's cuz the gym helps me avoid thinking. I can't do any real thinking for another couple of weeks, when choices will be made. But I went to a BBq at my friend's house this past weekend, and we got talking about Edmonton...mainly, cuz a friend of mine is moving there. He's going to check it out the week after I come back. So, if he goes, there's 4 people I know out there, 3 I've actually met. Funny, all guys....Dean, Mike Foot (not sure I wanna talk to him though), Adam, and if Lance goes, Lance. Plus Justin was saying he'll go too! Oh, and Michelle's sister told her to go too! So, if I go, maybe next year, Michelle will join me too! It'll be an experience....plus at Mc D's, you make $14 an hour! I'm really leaning towards going, and it's for me now, which is what i want it to be, not for Dean. Who know's what'll happen between him and me, but I need to be happy where ever I am. I've even got an interview while I'm out there. And it's a job I know well too! So, wish me luck there!
Anyways, I should get to my room, I need sleep soon, not that I'll sleep, not for a bit at least...but ya.
Hope all who read this are doing well! Not sure if Ms Google still reads me, but if you do, hi! Edmonton's in 13 days...then, life can continue, but maybe a new life begin....
ps! OMG! I almost forgot, PHANTOM OF THE OPERA WILL BE IN EDMONTON WHEN I'M THERE! WOO HOO!

Current mood: happy

1:15PM - life/family...it's a funny thing....

So, I went to my cousin michelle's wedding this weekend. It was nice. I didn't get to go to the wedding, but I got to go to the after party, which is more fun! I was the decorating commity, along with 2 other cousins. But i got to see some cousins I haven't seen in a long time, including Michelle and Natalie. So what was nice. I told Natalie my plans in life, she'll come visit me.
I'm on reception right now, and these people are bugging me....LEAVE ME BE PEOPLE!
So, anyways, 19 days til Edmonton, still need to get my ticket, wednesday my credit card turns over, so I'll do it then! I should pay more of my last bill...hmmm
So, michelle (my friend) wants another tatoo, so i'm taking her to see Peel, when she has a chance. He's the guy who did my tatoo, nice work too. He did Dean's tatoos too, and I've seen some of the other work done too. Mostly custom. But nice stuff.
Anyways, so the family....some people got pissed off, cuz they felt like they had to babysit my nana....Natalie and I helped though, but her own kids had issues. And my Uncle Evan, came up to Sundrigde, which is a 3-4 hour drive, went to the hotel, went to the bar, and didn't come to the wedding, nor stopped in to see my aunt. And why? Cuz, Evan's gf's daughter used to date my cousin Andrew, who's Aileen's son, (Aileen's my aunt who's daughter, michelle, got married) Well, They broke up, now, just over a month ago. So, my uncle, got into it with my aunt, and now, they have issues. My god people, get over it. They are just kids (teenagers). They weren't going to stay together forever! Hell, they weren't even together all that long! So what, her heart was broken, she'll get over it! Don't split up the family over bull shit like this. Evan and his gf had breakfast with my other aunts, and never went to see my aunt Aileen.
When I was growing up, mom's side of the family was really close. Me, Jen (my sister), Mel, Wes, Natalie and Michelle (sometimes), all grew up together. Then, Mel and Wes moved out west, Natalie and Michelle, moved up north....we all kind of grew appart. Mel and I are still close. That's part of the reason I want to go out west...she needs her family more then the others....and i miss her.
Anyways, I'm done complaining about my family now, besides, I get to go to my own desk soon...YAY!
Life is funny....people come and go, but family's always there....unless someone pisses off someone else, then everyone gets involved....I love my family...but sometimes....BAH!

Current mood: tired

1:30AM - just thinking...

K, so I haven't said much here lately, about my thoughts etc. So, my cousin Mel, she lives in Calgary...and she said something to me a few months back when I told her I was thinking of going out there, that I can stay with her if I want!
So, here's my thoughts....Dean, I won't put any pressure on you...if you want me, I'm yours....if you want me in Edmonton with you...I'm there....but if I don't feel right about it....then maybe I'll move to Calgary then. I've been to both city's....and yes, Edmonton doesn't have a whole lot to offer me...entertainment wise. It's that general area I think I want to be in....mostly for the travelling. Ontario, kinda bores me....I've checked out all I want to check out. Now, I want to see Alberta....BC....Saskatchwan. Can't do that from here. Do I want this thing with Dean to work out...hell yes! Do I think it will? Who knows. I just know, where ever I move to, I want there to be people I care about, and who care about me, around. Ontario, I have all the people here....Edmonton, I have Dean...Calgary, I have Mel, Wes, and Jill. But in either Edmonton, or Calgary...it's only a few hour drive from the other.
I was watching a show sometime (sadly, I think Dr Phil) and he told a girl, make a desision...live with it for a week, and see how you feel. Well...I've done that...and here's how I feel...
1) scared....it's a big change...
2) a little apprehensive....cuz I'm scared....
3) excited....it'll be an adventure...
4) happy....they say as a sag, I'm not going to stick in one area too long...I've been in this area for 27 years....maybe my b-day present to me should be a change...a big one...

I'm doing a dinner at Fo Hoo's September 23rd, a just cuz dinner. Here, choices will be made....anouncements will be made.
To all that matter to me, I love you all, and no matter where I am in the world, or with who...I will love you all, always. Unless you really piss me off. Then, I won't hate you...but I won't love you either.
I'm going to bed...I'm going to sleep on these thoughts....think about it too...and tell me what you think....

Current mood: thoughtful

3:42PM - life...it changes...

Ever sat there and thought, what did I do a year ago today...and you can remember?
Well, I can...a year ago this weekend, I went camping with some friends....and I reflect from how I felt a year ago, to how I feel today...what's changed..who's still in my life...who's not...who have I meet in the last year...how have my thoughts changed for my life in the last year...
lets just say, a lot's changed. Some for the good, some for the meh (neither good nor bad) More good in the last year then meh. It's just figuring out the last bit of my year this year...but only a few more weeks til then. Wow....time flies when your having fun eh?
Anyways...to those still in my life, thanks for being there...to all the new people in my life....I really hope you are around for along time (especially you...)...to those people I no longer talk to...lifes like that...you were there for a time...thank you for that time....and to those I haven't meet yet...I look forward to meeting you, and hope it's a good meeting.
Life's about changes...it's just something you have to expect in life. Always remember, never forget...the good and even the bad. When you are having a bad time, you need the good to remember and come back to the good thoughts....You need the bad when you might do the same again. Or even, when you think it's bad...it's not as bad as you see it. There's always something worse out there.
This is my life thoughts for the moment....I'm going camping tonight....enjoy your long weekend people...I know I'll enjoy mine...
to all those having b-days this weekend...have a good one, just not too good.... ;)
b-days this weekend
1) Peter (my boss) August 4th
2) Nana (my nana) August 5th
3) Dean (if you don't know him, well...:P) August 6th
4) My mom and Aunt Aileen (self explanitory) August 7th
5) Carmel (my co-worker) August 8th.
and I'll include my cousin Charlotte here too, August 12th!
Have good ones people...and behave...lol

Current mood: happy

12:51PM - all is well in my little world

Just wanted to let everyone know, all is well in my little world. It might be little, but it means a lot to me! Well, I got some good news on the weekend...but I'm not going to tell you...all I'll say...we'll see what I'm doing for the september long weekend....:D
This weekend, it's off to camping! YAY! I can't believe it's August already...Sorry Dean, I can't be out there for your b-day...next month...(wow, already??) I had a thought...males grow up, dont' they? (hehe) apparently not...at almost 33, he still couldn't wait to open his present...lol. But that's ok...I would have liked to see him open it, preferably in person...but even over web cam....but that's ok....CRAP! I should have got him to turn on his cam...oh well, to late. A present for someone, the best feeling in the world, is the look on their faces when they open it....he said to me last week, "you got me a present for my b-day, right?" I said, "yup" he said "I thought I told you not to" which I returned "I thought you knew I didn't listen!" It was nothing extravigent...but a little something. Along with a movie..."that's ok, I'll stay here and have my HUNGRY MAN!" lol...I had to ask my parents! and prepair myself for it too....
Anyways...montreal was awesome...I think I've said that before....but I need another holiday...I have the long weekend to look forward too...as of now, I have 38 days to look forward to my holidays...(yay!) Off to Edmonton.
Oh, and fyi, September 23rd (also happens to be my nephews b-day) we're going out to dinner for a just cuz dinner! Make sure you are there people! lol
Anyways, lunch is over, it's back to reality...I don't wanna work, I just wanna bang (on the drums) all day! depending on how you write that, or read that...wow...that's sexual! lol.
Money makes the world go round...ya ya Dean, I get it....until Mexico! And to the rest of ya, see ya!

Current mood: thirsty

1:20PM - Hehe

12:39PM - stuff

So, I'm back from Montreal, it was a good week. Which reminds me, I have to write in the black book...hmmm
And yes, still friends with Michelle, I didn't kill her! lol.
So, I'm going camping in 9 days for the long weekend (sorry Dean, I miss you b-day! stupid month end b-days...) But hey, I'll be going to Edmonton in 44 days (not that I'm counting!)
So, my uncles moving to Austrailia next month, he'll be leaving on the 11th, my poor cousin misses her b-day, when they leave it'll be the 11th, when they land, it'll be the 13th. She'll miss her 12th b-day! But we had a going away party for them this past Saturday. It was good...CRAP! I forgot to call Damian...I told him I'd call him when I was going to Jen's place on Saturday, but I didn't end up going to Jen's...and I forgot him til 11 at night. Oh well, I'll talk to him this weekend...

So, there's 7 of us going camping...but one doesn't excist...as per camping rules "6 per site"
Me, Lori, Michelle, Kim, Alex, Damian and Ryan. my girls, and my bro's....just from different mothers...even though Ryan does like to scare mom and call her "MOMMY!" as he runs at her, with his arms open....my mother's not a....hugging person. She didn't tell me she missed me when I went to Montreal....:( so sad.
Anyways, my Aunts love me, and hug me, so I'll move on...for now...
that's it for now anyways! Thanks for missing me those who did...and to all the rest of you? That's ok, I didn't miss you either! hehe!

Current mood: happy

12:38PM - hehe...funny

Chinese Zodiac - Year of the Horse

The Horse

People born in the Year of the Horse are popular. They are cheerful, skillful with money, and perceptive, although they sometimes talk too much. They are wise, talented, good with their hands, and sometimes have a weakness for members of the opposite sex. They are impatient and hot-blooded about everything except their daily work. They like entertainment and large crowds. They are very independent and rarely listen to advice. They are most compatible with Tigers, Dogs, and Sheep.

You are a hard worker.
You are independent, intelligent and friendly.
You can be a bit selfish.
You will find success as an adventurer, scientist or poet.

Current mood: good

10:45AM - AAAAAAAAHHHHH!

Well, 5 hours of sleep last night...not too bad! (better then my 3 hours of sleep, then having to work! BAH!) But i'll be alllll good! So, I'm picking up Michelle soon, then we are OFF to MONTREAL! I'm driving to the other side of Toronto, then Michelle takes over, so I can nap! Anyone wanna get a hold of me, text me, I'll call you back! (I have a calling card!) Thanks for the advise, I WILL have a good time with my friends, both male and female. I live for the moment, and this moment, I'm going to see my family and hang with Michelle! JUST FOR LAUGHS BABY! woo hoo! So, keep well all, i'm outta the province! I'll be back on the following Sunday, don't care to give the date, cuz I'm at the beginning of my holidays, I don't wanna think of the end of them, cuz I'll have to wait til September for my next holidays (which I think about...but just not the time between!)
Will you people miss me? I think you will!come on, how could you not miss me! YOU ALL LOVE ME! K, I am a little hyper...maybe a bit wacked...but just a bit...lol
Enjoy the week without me, I know I'll enjoy the week without you people! (sorry dudes, it's holidays!)
I'm outta here! mom'll miss me this time...maybe even hug me before I go...a girl can dream can't she? hehe

Current mood: hyper

11:46PM - googled

Funny, I was googled. I was found through my e-mail address...trying to find out how to chenge it so I can't be googled that way...it has 3 of my e-mail addresses on it...not sure why it has my work address too but hey! It's funny! To those who googled me and found me, HI! Nice to meet you. Well, kind of meet you. Hope all is well! Now, I'm going to bed, since I'm going to Montreal tomorrow, and in 62 days, I'm going for a visit to Edmonton. WOO HOO! *sigh* not sure i'll sleep muc tonight, but hey, I was out most of the day today! So, off to read what else I've writen then off to bed!

Current mood: tired

1:55PM - Edgefest!

OMG! I went to my first Edgefest yesterday, and yes, I got burned...and only a little wet, since we had seats, and a roof!
Evan's Blue, Mobile, Neverending White Lights, Hot Hot Heat, Keane and Our Lady Peace. in that order! OMG! Our Lady peace was...for lack of better words...AWESOME! I knew at least 1 song from every band, just don't ask me which songs...it's still all kind of a blur, and my head hurts a bit today too. So, it was me, Michelle, Kamila, and Bart who went. Bart and Kamila were fighting for the first bit, til we went to Eastside Mario's for lunch...then they talked soccer, and it was all good. They all got to my house at 10:36, with intent to go to lunch. Well people, restaurants don't open til 12! And I wasn't dressed yet. So, I got ready while they watched just for laughs. We got there, about 2...the doors opened at 3...so we wondered. got some drinks, had some fun....before they pissed me off and took my camera. It was a little weird going to Edgefest with michelle, on the basis, I knew more of the groups then her! lol. Well, not totally, I knew Evans Blue, I had to tell her, "Cold, but I'm still here" is what they sing. OH! And on the way there, to get Kamila and Bart into the car, I told them I have a TV on my phone...I didn't say I'd give it to them, I just told them I have it. So, from Oakville, all the way to TO, "5 mins...please, just give us the phone!" It didn't bother me, I just turned up my music, I didn't even hear them. Michelle, 4am...that's our song man!
Anyways, all in all, AWESOME concert...AWESOME DAY! Even thought i got burned...
As I messaged Dean, "only one thing that could make me happier right now...you (Dean) here, with me..."Aren't I nice?
Don't get me wrong, I love Michelle...she's my buddy...will never have another friend like her, no matter when I am. She's the only one deemed "buddy". We're going to montreal next week together....WOO HOO! But come on...I miss the guy...And when I was leaving the park yesterday (before getting to the car, and taking 2 hours to get home!) That would have been the one thing to top off my day...Dean, with me.
That's enough of that though...I wanna go...I'm bored...yet, lazy. Go figure.

Current mood: happy

1:35PM - ok, i'm really weird...

So, Dean...he's mean to me, he picks on me, he "ignores" me...and you know what? I love it. Am I weird? I think so. I'm so nice to him, saying nice things, making him smile, or better yet, laugh...and he's just so mean to me! But I'm going to see him in 68 days! (not that I'm counting) (and for the record, I am) September 8th. I'm taking the rest of my holidays from work to see him. I went to Edgefest yesterday, and I was talking via text to Dean. Well my camera got taken away, will vent about that in another text, his reply "suck it up baby" And then, we're commenting about where we are, he said it would be nicer here, I said, "we're at 30 now! Besides, it's better here cuz I'm here" which he replied "not..it is too....and there are girls here too" I said "but not me!" in which he replied...get this..."thank god!" like really...nice guy eh? PFFT! that's right, I PFFT you...don't give me that WHATEVER or FINE... you "thank god'd" about there not being another me...then again, I could take that the other way too...I'm too special to have more then one of me...but that's not how he ment it...he ment to be MEAN to me....
Ya, I'm crazy...I love to be picked on...what can I say, I crave attention, both good and bad...lol. Good thing I can take a joke...it better be a joke....so mean! hehe

Current mood: crazy

9:29AM - what I want to do before I go...

see old friends I haven't seen in a while
have 1 last, just because dinner
spend time with the kids
go to Canada's wonderland
spend time with my closest friends (always doing this)
spend a day in TO (doing that July 8th)
go to Montreal (in 11 days)
one last camping trip (August long weekend)
get a hair cut (seen Paula)
go to Springridge farm (done, July 3rd)
go to Port Dover
Train Damian to take over for me (that's having a lot of faith!)
go to Wasaga (when we go camping)
Have a HUGE going away party
Visit Pam, Aileen and Natalie
Go to Edgefest (doing that on Saturday)
take the kids out for one last b-day dinner
Nashville North
Niagara falls
concour the tunel! (or not)
see Michelle off to school
deal with all "issues" as best as i can
pack (ya, that should be on there)
tell mom and dad my plans
Enjoy life
Enjoy everything I do between now and November (and beyond) as if it were the last time doing any of it
take lots of pictures
put pictures on the computer on a cd to take with me
update resume
send out resume
go to Websters falls, take some friends, show them what I see...
have a picnic
have a pot luck dinner
visit family
work hard in my jui jitsu class, maybe get graded in October
Collect people's e-mail addresses
I wanna go to the zoo...

Current mood: weird

1:27PM - just occuring thoughts...

Just came to me...next September, Michelle's going to school in St Kits. She'll be out there, making new friends, plus have her school and all that. Exams, homework...all that joy. She won't have much time for me. Understandably so. So, why not try something new? Edmonton...I can still talk to all the people I care about here, I won't be able to see them, but more reason for them to get a web cam! (after I get myself a computer that is) the worst part? the moving. I can make friends where ever I am, I'm that kinda person. Plus, Dean's out there. We can see where that'll go (if he still wants me!) but still, I can't go until September. So, here's my thoughts, writen. I'll go to Edmonton, in September, with the though, I'll be moving there by November. Spend all the "non working" time I can, with Dean. And while he's at work, find myself a job and a place to live. (side note, before making a choice on where to live, get Dean...approvel? not what I'm looking for...check it out with Dean)
So, there it is...my "plan"...as long as he can wait for me til September...then, for another month after that...
Sure, I'll miss the people here, but it's my life, and I'm bored of Ontario...I like what/who I see in Alberta...
So, why not? I've done worst things based on why not...I'll never know, unless I try...hmmm...exactly.

Current mood: restless

11:34PM - happy/sad...

Well, I got a happy sad thing going on here....the thing of the moment...I know when I can go out west to see Dean...(happy. It's not til September...(sad) it's a long time away...yet, not really either. And if September goes all well, I'll be out there again by the end of October. I'm a little worried (come on, I'm still a woman here!) that Dean won't really want to wait for me. I'm waiting to hear from my cousin, so I can find out for sure if she's coming down in July. I haven't seen her in a few years and she's staying at my place. I'm the only other one Cory knows! I've got a lot going on in the next few weeks (more like a month and more) to keep me busy. Does it mean I miss Dean less? HELL NO! just means my minds entertained for a little bit. They say "distance makes the heart grow fonder..." I hope that's true....I know i'm "fonder" of Dean since he's been gone...our relationship's been based on talking...and a certain camera....but I get to see the real Dean, from a distance...in what he says, and how he acts, without seeing him. It's an interesting experience. I know what I want...but I have to wait til September, to see if it's all real...on both sides...I care for him a lot. I do love him. I love easy. In love on the other had, not easy at all. "love you for who you are"...as Dean tried to quote me..."love you as a friend, like you are more..." is my line...
Anyways, the cd's done, and i need to get some sleep...Dean's in bed already...just not mine... :(
I ask one thing of you Dean...please wait for me. I think you'll be happy with the out cum.... ;)

Current mood: contemplative

1:00PM - yet, another

Part 1: 1st

Were you a planned baby?:
I was planned perfection! They got that right! :D

Were you the first?:
my sister was the first, she was the practice run…they waited 6 years for perfection.

Were your parents married when you were born?:
yes, and no. Tell the catholic church, your parents were married AFTER you were baptised…they were married in 72, and got re-married, in the catholic church in 79.

What is your birth date?:
Dec 6th, 1978

Part 2: The Family

How would you describe your family?:
can be fun, can be a pain in the ass…generally entertaining though

Are your parents married, divorced or separated?
Married

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?:
I'm the baby, I got the easy life…:D

What are your siblings names?:
Jennifer…I had a brother named PJ too…parents put him down when he was 14.

Which parent do you get along with best?:
usually both, right now, my dad.

Do you have step parents?:
nope

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?:
I don’t like to signify friends as “best” but I do have a few close friends…some closer then others.

Who are your good friends?:
in no particular order, Michelle, Lori, Jen and we’ll include Dean too!

What do you like to do when you are together?
well, each other, I like to do different things with. Jen’s usually out going, likes to do out doors stuff, Michelle, she’s more of a hanging out friend, not too ambitious, Lori, depends her mood and well, Dean…lets just say, you don’t wanna know…hehe

Do you share the same interests?
depends my mood.

Which friend can you tell anything to?:
Jen and Dean I’ll say, but the others, I tell things too.

Part 4: Your Personality

Do you get depressed about things easily?
not usually, unless someone ignores me…hehe

Are you happy?:
95% of the time, yes!

Do you live life to the fullest?:
I try…I’m doing better this year then any other year!

Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look?:
I like me, yes! Just need a hair cut…

Do you have any piercings?
4, all in my ears

How do you dress?
for work, I dress workish, kinda dressy casual. Outside of work, I’m comfortable in jeans and a tank top

Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child?:
strange doesn’t begin to describe me…I was a tom boy though

What did you use to love that you no longer do?:
some people. Lol.

Do you have the same friends?:
from a child? 1, my friend Jill, in Calgary

Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?:
yes, but I don’t want to talk about it…it comes back to me every once in a while, and it’s one of those things, few, if any know about.

Part 7: The Future

What is your ambition?:
to do everything I want to in life, travel, and be loved, and of course, love to my fullest extent…

Are you scared of growing old:
not really

Do you want to get married?:
we’ll see. Who knows what life will bring me…

Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
outdoors, any season…

What is your favorite season:
I like em all, for their own reasons, winter, snow, skiing, spring, everything comes alive again, a new outlook on life, summer, beaches, fall, walks in the woods, watching the colours change

Favorite weather?:
sunny with a few puffy white clouds, and on the warm side, no humidity

Do you like walking in the rain?:
I like the idea of it, when I have a change of clothes…but I can’t say I’ve done it lately

Part 9: Food

Are you a vegetarian?:
partial, but not really

What is your favorite food?:
fruits and veggies, tacos, chicken, and sketty!

What food makes you want to gag?:
cooked vegetables, liver….YUCK!

What is your favorite dessert?:
hugs and kisses…:D strawberries and wiped cream…

What is your favorite restaurant?:
depends my mood

Are you a picky eater?:
can be


Part 10: Relationships and Love

Are you single or taken?:
taken…just from a distance

If taken who is the lucky boy/girl?
Dean

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:
love, weather as a friend or more, is great

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I fall in love with the person, inside and out. Love at first sight’s an infatuation. I’m deeper then that…:D

Current mood: thoughtful

12:41PM - funnies...

A mother and her very young son were flying Westjet Airlines from Ottawa to
Calgary. The little boy (who had been looking out the window) turned to his
mother and asked, "If big dogs have baby dogs, and big cats have baby
cats, why don't big airplanes have baby airplanes?"

The mother, who couldn't think of an answer, told her son to ask the stewardess.

So the boy went down the aisle and asked the stewardess. The stewardess,
who was very busy at the time, smiled and said, "Did your Mom tell you to ask me?"

The boy said, "Yes, she did."

"Well then, you go and tell your mother that there are no baby airplanes
because Westjet always pulls out on time. Have your Mom explain that to you."

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sure, man jokes, but I can deal with it...:D
How many men does it take to open a beer?
None. It should be opened when she brings it.
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Why is a Laundromat a really bad place to pick up a woman?
Because a woman who can't even afford a washing machine will probably never be able to support you.
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Why do women have smaller feet than men?
It's one of those "evolutionary things" that allows
Them to stand closer to the kitchen sink.
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How do you know when a woman is about to say something smart?
When she starts a sentence with "A man once told me..."
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How do you fix a woman's watch?
You don't. There is a clock on the oven.
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Why do men fart more than women?
Because women can't shut up long enough to
Build up the required pressure.
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If your dog is barking at the back door and your wife is yelling at the front door, who do you let in first?
The dog, of course. He'll shut up once you let him in.
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What's worse than a Male Chauvinist Pig?
A woman who won't do what she's told.
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I married a Miss Right.
I just didn't know her first name was Always.
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Scientists have discovered a food that diminishes
A woman's sex drive by 90%.
It's called a Wedding Cake.
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Why do men die before their wives?
They want to.
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Women will never be equal to men until they can
Walk down the street with a bald head and a beer
Gut, and still think they are sexy.
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In the beginning, God created the earth and rested.
Then God created Man and rested.
Then God created Woman.
Since then, neither God nor Man has rested.
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He ordered one hamburger, one order of French fries and one drink. The old man unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully cut it in half. He placed one half in front of his wife. He then carefully counted out the French fries, dividing them into two piles and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife.

He took a sip of the drink, his wife took a sip and then set the cup down between them. As he began to eat his few bites of hamburger, the people around them kept looking over and whispering. You could tell they were thinking, "That poor old couple - all they can afford is one meal for the two of them."

As the man began to eat his fries a young man came to the table. He politely offered to buy another meal for the old couple. The old man said the y were just fine - They were used to sharing everything.

The surrounding people noticed the little old lady hadn't eaten a bite. She sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally taking turns sipping the drink.

Again the young man came over and begged them to let him buy another meal for them. This time the old woman said "No, thank you, we are used to sharin g everything."

As the old man finished and was wiping his face neatly with the napkin, the young man again came over to the little old lady who had yet to eat a single bite of food and asked "What is it you are waiting for?"

She answered


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Current mood: happy